So although this week sucked for me on an emotional/mental level it didn’t suck on a physical level.

I ended the week down1.4lbs. Which takes me to 258lbs.

My weight is not dropping as fast as last time, but I’ve been experimenting with different foods lately and I’m just glad to not gain.

I’m happy with this slower rate, but I wouldn’t mind for it to speed up again!

I weighed in this morning and I’m down 1lb for the week putting me at 259.4lbs. I still have a long way to go till I’m back to where I was, but I will get there.

I’m finally starting to feel good again. It’s crazy how bad you feel when you eat a high carb diet, but it’s even crazier how you don’t realize how bad you feel till you start feeling better.

I’m very please with this weeks results. I’m down 2.2lbs to 260.4lbs. I’m very pleased with this since my wife and I have been sick all week. Great way to spend a vacation!

This coming week will be a much better week for me as far as food choices go. This week we ran low on money and had to make due with what was around the house, which was not always the best choices. So today I get to go grocery shopping and load up on all sorts of good fat and protein!

Well this was only a four day week since I started weighing myself again, and I did not gain or lose any weight. I’m happy with that since I went out to eat a few times this week because of the holidays.

I decided to take the next week off of work to spend extra time with my son. So I will be home till next Monday and I’m looking forward to next Friday’s update because I know I will have some great progress to share.

I’m starting to doing push ups and stuff again, and I’m also walking a lot more too, so this will be a good week.

Thank you everyone for sticking with me and giving me much needed pushes along the way!

My plans going forward from here, as far as the site goes, is to make a post on Friday every week. In that post I will talk about my loss or gain for the week, but hopefully only loss, and give any thoughts I may have.

I don’t want to continue to have this blog being a place were I cry and complain every day about something only to change my kind the next day and then back again the next.

I want to try to keep things on a more positive note and not have my blog be where I go to confess every little slip up I have.

If I run into problems that are legit and confusing to me, like when I had low fat intake, then I will post and ask for advise, but if I eat chips and salsa one night or some pizza another I don’t need to run here and tell the world. I think doing that before was negative reinforcement. I need to be able to have this blog as a place to enjoy my success and learn from the experience of others.

So look for a weight update Friday and hopefully I will have good news to report.

I weighed in this morning at 262.6 lbs. I could make excuses and stuff, but the bottom line is that this is unacceptable.

I’m going to start tracking my weigh ins again. Although it drove me crazy in some ways it did help me not get off track too much. I’m also going to start blogging more frequently again. I had slowed down on posting mostly out of embarrassment, but I need to start back at it again.

I’m starting a new Excel sheet to track my progress and I’m going to try my best to not think too much about what I had lost previously and just focus on this time.

So I’m back and this time no excuses.

So I took a little break from my blog and twitter. I needed to get everything out of my mind as I dealt with other issues in my life. I also at like complete crap during this time, but I think I have everything worked out and am ready to get back on track and feeling better again! Hopefully I will have more to say later and hopefully I will have a good progress report soon.

Here is a well timed post by Karen over at PaleoPeriodical that really echos what I’ve decided to do in my own life. I think I really tried to do too much too fast as far as changes in my diet and life go. I think that taking things back a bit is the best decision I’ve made in a long time.

Also making these Morning Glory Muffins might be another great decision. My wife made these this morning and they smell absolutely amazing. We’re waiting on them to cool and hopefully they taste as amazing as they smell!

After my realization that I can’t give every area of my life 100% of my time and effort I decided to take things back to the basics.

I’m going to be following a very simple low carb plan for now. More of an Atkins approach than anything. I won’t be counting carbs but will keep in mind that I want to keep them down and avoid obviously bad foods like grain and sugars.

This puts some foods back on the table for me that I normally avoided. Like some lunch meats, sausages, and salad dressings. I know these contain ingredients that won’t lead to optimal health, but I need a “plan” I can follow and stick to in this current phase of my life.

I’m only going to weigh myself at the start of each month. Everyday though I’m going to look at myself in the mirror and ask myself three simple questions. Do I look the same or better than yesterday? Do I feel the same or better than yesterday? Do my clothes fit the same or better than yesterday?

As long as I can answer yes to all of these I will continue what I’m doing. If I answer no then I will find out why and make the necessary changes.

I’m Fat, but that’s not my only problem in life. If I had my shit together and all I had to worry about was my weight then that would be so much easier to handle. However that’s not how it is. I have a whole host of other issues. Like I said in my last post I’m working on “finding myself”. I’m also working towards having healthy environments in and around me. All of this takes a lot of effort.

In the past I viewed each of my issues as their own separate thing. I thought I could give 100% of my efforts to each thing. Well… That just doesn’t add up.

Yes, my dietary stuff has been rough lately. I was very hard on myself for that until last night when I realized that it was because my efforts have been going towards “healing” other areas in my life. So while I have lost much weight and I’m still up from my lowest I still feel great and I’m still plenty down from my starting weight. I’m also not gaining a bunch of weight. So that’s amazing and I need to realize that at this point in my life dietary stuff is not receiving 100% of my effort.

Now I’m not saying that I’m giving myself a license to eat whatever I want. What I am saying is that now is not the time to be rocking my dietary boat. I need to keep things simple and not be trying new endeavors right now. I need to stick to what I know works and will at least keep me from gaining weight back. When I finish sorting through these other life issues I can then bring my focus back to dietary issues.

With that said I think I’m going to really start posting more about things that are going on in my life in general and not just diet stuff. I’ve said that in the past and not really done it, but perhaps I actually will this time. So this blog is hopefully going to be transforming away from just being a mostly weight loss blog and more towards a blog about a dad and husband who is trying to get every aspect of his life in order so that he can provide the very best environment for his wife and son.

One word of caution though. If I post about issues such as religion, philosophy, or science keep in mind that my opinions are ever changing. I have a buddy who I often discuss random thoughts that pop into my head with. We talk about them, pick them apart, and try to learn as much as we can from it. I now hope to take that to a bigger (not much bigger though) stage and get more outside ideas on my thoughts. I’m NEVER stuck in my ways and am always looking for what makes the most sense. So if one week I say one thing and the next I say something the exact opposite it’s not because I’m a hypocrite or something it’s because I am an evolving creature who is always growing and learning. So please keep that in mind as I move forward with exposing more of myself and sharing my thoughts.